Hurt and Healing

Why does this hurt so bad?

Was it me?

Is there something wrong with me?

I thought he really liked me

Am I unlikeable?

Have you ever said anyone of these?

I have. Sometimes more than I should. About 3-4 months ago I was in a relationship that I thought very well could have been "the one". I was head over heels. Couldn't think of anyone else other than him. I had it bad, really bad. Then in one short day all of the dreams I had, all of the hopes and wishes came crashing down around me. Seeming to slice my heart with each new one that fell. I was in so much pain that I couldn't eat or sleep for days. So he wasn't "the one", big deal. So what. Why does this hurt so bad? You feel like your heart was ripped out of your chest and its hard to breath. You have actually let someone in enough to almost destroy you, or destroy your dreams. I hate it. Why would someone want to do that to another person. I wouldn't wish this on someone I hated. Thank God that He is here for me. I would never be able to make it through without Him. He is the only thing that has kept me going. This is my favorite song on this subject.

Healing

April 1st, 2011

Healing isn't easy, it's hard

Healing can't be done alone, you need God's help

Healing is impossible without forgiveness

Healing isn't fast, it's slow

Healing takes time, so give yourself time, and pray 

PixieHale

Hope for the brokenhearted

The Lord is near to the brokenhearted

And saves those who are crushed in spirit

Psalm 34:18

PixieHale Poetry

To start off I thought I would post some of the poetry that I have written since the year 2011 has started. The name I write under for my poetry is PixieHale. Hope you like it. 

"God is good"
1/20/11

No matter what happens, God is good
No matter how it hurts, God is good
No matter how long it takes, God is good
No matter what it is, God is good
God is good
God is good
oh yes
God is good

PixieHale

"I know"
1/21/11

I know no matter what God is holding me
I know no matter what God can get me through
I know no matter what God is always here
I know no matter what God gives me the strength I need
I know no matter what God is good
I know no matter what God is God

PixieHale
 

 
"I can't believe"
1/22/11

I can't believe I was that stupid
I can't believe I fell for it
I can't believe I let you lie
I can't believe you thought I wouldn't find out
I can't believe you tried to get away with that
I can't believe
I can't believe
I can't believe you think I'm gonna miss you
I can't believe you think you can bother me now
I can't believe you don't believe it's really over
It's over

PixieHale

 

 
"Sometimes"
1/22/11

Sometimes it's hard
Sometimes it's easy
Sometimes it's painful
Sometimes it's joyful
Sometimes I think it's more than I can take
Sometimes it's hard
Sometimes it's easy
But it's always life
and it always goes on

PixieHale

 

"The only one"
1/27/11

God is the only one who can fix it
The only one who can make it all better
The only one who can make me feel better
The only one who can take away the guilt
The only one who can take all the pain
The only one
The only one
The only one
 
PixieHale

 

"God can"
1/28/11
 
When I can't do it, God can
God can do anything and everything
God can help me through all my trails
God is my rock, the one I run to
He's the one who holds me
He's the way I get through
When I can't do it, God can.
 
PixieHale